I just want to write this entry as a little memoir for myself.
I was sitting in my uni library doing my assignment. At the same time I was hoping to see or bump into a certain someone. Many people walked past whom I thought could be him and ofcourse they werent. So I got to doing my assignment and then, about two hours later he walked by.
He just strolled by in his blue t-shirt, charcoal board shorts and the area between his thump and index finger were sliding on his backpack. I went mental. Not because he walked past but because I wanted him to and he did.
I went up and said "hi" to him. I am making it sound so simple, boy was it not! I walked up with Nyree, and after locating him I was trying to think of certain "reasons" why we were where he was: we were looking for books on Israel (despite being in the children' section), Nyree was studying early education, oh the list went on and on. Eventually we stuck with the first story, but when I saw him he didnt so happy to see me.
As she was walking out the library it was obvious that he saw me from the corner of his eye, but he kept walking down the stairs anyway. I told myself that he was shy, but he could have said bye, even if just a hand gesture. At the same time I pretended not to see him, so who am I to come up with excuses?
I dont know. I dont even know if I like him. I have told myself 100 times that it is the idea of him I like, not necessarily him, but I think I do like him. Oh dear! (as he would say)
Anyway, I must get back to my essay. I just wanted to write this entry to remind myself that if you want somthing bad enough it will surely come your way, even if only briefly.
